Killer Dave Mahon it’s easy for people to blame him over disappearance of Amy Fitzpatrick

Killer Dave Mahon says it’s easy for people to blame him over the disappearance of his stepdaughter Amy Fitzpatrick - which he has always denied any involvement in.

Mahon also spoke about how he is sorry for killing his stepson Dean Fitzpatrick, how he has no regrets about asking the likes of mob boss Daniel Kinahan for help, and how he and wife Audrey “walk through hell” every day. Mahon (52) who spent five years in prison for the manslaughter of Dean, spoke to us as he’s just released his new tell-all autobiography ‘How Much Pain Can Our Hearts Endure.’

The massive book, which has over 900 pages, covers the disappearance of Dave’s stepdaughter Amy from Spain in 2008, the killing of Dean, his time in prison and his battle with cancer and alcohol, the Irish Mirror reports.

Asked about a continued perception by some that he has something to do with Amy’s disappearance, Dave said: “It’s easy to blame the father, the stepfather. It’s easy. I could delve into your life and come up with some terrible stories about you. We have to take those blows unfortunately because that’s the way society is wired. But I’m a realist and we’re living this.”

Dave’s wife Audrey, mother to Amy and Dean, who has stood by him all this time, added that she too has been accused, as was her son. “Dean was getting blamed. As her mother, the finger was pointed at me,” she said.

Dave, who writes extensively in his new book about the pain he says he and Audrey have suffered, added that they try not to be phased by any of the criticism on social media or by sceptical people. “We’re after being through hell and still are. I won’t say we walked through hell with a smile but that’s what we sort of do. We walk through hell every day.”

In the book Mahon opens up about meeting members of the criminal underworld - enlisting them to try and help find out information about missing Amy. The Irish Mirror understands that one of those that Mahon met was mob boss Daniel Kinahan - who vowed to help the couple try and find Amy.

Asked if he now regrets meeting the likes of Kinahan Dave said: “Absolutely not. I should have gone to them sooner.

“We were working in Spain. We were very successful in Spain. We didn’t know who all these boys were.

We met top gangsters. We met chocolate gangsters. As soon as you put it up to some of them they melt. We met the Russian mafia. We met them all. As Audrey and I have said from day one you pray to God and you pray to the devil. You go to the cops and you go to the underworld.”

Despite all of their efforts no trace of Amy has been found - and Dave says he sadly now believes she is likely dead. “It’s nice to go to bed sometimes and think she’s on a yacht somewhere in a beautiful exotic place, but to be honest with you I don’t think so. When I close my eyes I’m a realist. I’m sorry Audrey,” Dave said.

He also said he believes the person responsible for Amy’s disappearance will read his book - but will likely never talk. “Well Amy I think it’s obvious didn’t run away. They’re been following the story I’d imagine so they will read it.

“But I didn’t write the book for the person to come forward because fuck them, they won’t,” he said. “But they could be in a bar or a restaurant or on their deathbed and they might say something and there’s stuff in that book that might just raise its head and someone might just talk.”

Mahon also writes in extensive detail about the night he killed his stepson Dean - in a tragic incident in May 2013. Mahon was handed down a seven year sentence for Dean’s manslaughter - after claiming the young man ran into a knife he was holding inside his pocket, following a row over a water bottle.

Speaking today, Mahon says the chapter, entitled ‘Dean’s Last Night’ was the most difficult part of the book to write. “It was the hardest part. “If I look at any page of that and read one line it comes back to me. It teleports you back. “To read and to write about Dean was tough.

“No disrespect to anybody but I couldn’t give a shite about other people. We were living in an unreal situation and still are.

“I’m going to die, everyone’s going to die, that’s the book there, it’s set in stone and it’s my story,” he said.
In the book Mahon issues a public apology to Dean’s wider family over a death he insists was accidental.

“I feel sorry for such a tragic incident of course. There’s certain words that irk me and one of them is like sorry. One of them is remorse. It’s probably a word I hate,” Dave told us. “When you read the whole story then you know how sorry I am."

He also reveals that on his first night in Dublin’s Wheatfield Prison, he considered ending it all. “My first night in prison, I thought, what am I doing here in a cell? If I had a gun I would have used it.

“I think most normal people would think that. My stepson was dead, Audrey’s life and my life is ruined and other lives. “The other side of the family. An awful lot of people. This was a story that I said you couldn’t make up.”

Mahon also insisted that his autobiography, which is for sale now on Amazon and Kindle, is not about eliciting sympathy for him or Audrey. “At 52 years of age I’ve never looked for sympathy in my life. We just get on with life. “Were we unlucky? I don’t know what it was.

“We are not looking for sympathy,” Audrey added. “We didn’t make up the title of that book for that reason. “We purposely spent a lot of time coming up with the title of that book and that was the best way of putting it. It’s a statement. It’s a fact. It’s not something we made up to try and make people feel sorry for us.
“We don’t need people’s sympathy,” she said.

In the book Dave reveals that Audrey overdosed in the months following Dean’s death - as the pair grappled with the sheer horror of what had happened. Speaking today, Audrey reveals she overdosed on two occasions.

“The first time, it basically wasn’t even a year after Dean died. It wasn’t meant to be that, it was just meant to be that I just wanted to go to sleep and didn’t want to think about anything anymore,” she said.

“It wasn’t that I wanted to die because I’d never do that. I always have to be looking for Amy.

“But I took too many tablets because I just wanted to go to sleep and not think because when you wake up in your head everyday the first thing especially at that time I had at least one breakdown and I’m still on tablets to this day. I wouldn’t be able to manage without it.”

Meanwhile Dave reveals his battle with cancer and alcohol in his book - revealing that a doctor once told him he’d die within two years if he didn’t stop drinking. Mahon says he wants some of the proceeds from the book to go towards cancer research - as many of his family members, including himself have had it.

“It’s not about money. We want to raise money for cancer research. All my family bar one brother had cancer “I got it, my two sisters got it, my father has it. “I didn’t make the cancer stuff up, it’s real it’s there,” he said.

In spite of everything Dave and Audrey say they still have hope that Amy can be found. However Dave says had he been a drug dealer he feels the authorities would have taken more interest in the case - a case he now feels is getting no attention.

“The government does nothing, the police are doing nothing. I believe they think there’s nothing in it.

“If I was a big drug dealer there would be something in it for the cops to come down heavy on me. But what’s in it for the cops? “This is a worldwide problem. But what’s being done about it,” he said.

Mahon’s book ‘How Much Pain Can Our Hearts Endure’ is out now and can be purchased by visiting this link.

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